If God Is Real, Why Is Life So Hard?

So, I'm making this video to all those So, I'm making this video to all those who are really struggling right now. And who are really struggling right now. And who are really struggling right now. And first of all, God bless you, and first of all, God bless you, and first of all, God bless you, and hopefully this can give you just a hopefully this can give you just a hopefully this can give you just a little bit of light, just a little bit little bit of light, just a little bit little bit of light, just a little bit of hope. So, let's start off. So, we of hope. So, let's start off. So, we of hope. So, let's start off. So, we learn from the famous Dietrich learn from the famous Dietrich learn from the famous Dietrich Bonhoeffer, where he says, "We must Bonhoeffer, where he says, "We must Bonhoeffer, where he says, "We must learn to regard people less in the light learn to regard people less in the light learn to regard people less in the light of what they do or admit to do, and more of what they do or admit to do, and more of what they do or admit to do, and more in the light of what they suffer." Now, in the light of what they suffer." Now, in the light of what they suffer." Now, I think this is a really powerful quote, I think this is a really powerful quote, I think this is a really powerful quote, because what it symbolizes and what it because what it symbolizes and what it because what it symbolizes and what it shows is that the pain you are going shows is that the pain you are going shows is that the pain you are going through right now will determine who you through right now will determine who you through right now will determine who you are in the sense of how you deal with are in the sense of how you deal with are in the sense of how you deal with it. Because one thing of life which I it. Because one thing of life which I it. Because one thing of life which I think is pretty solid is we are going to think is pretty solid is we are going to think is pretty solid is we are going to experience sadness. We are going to experience sadness. We are going to experience sadness. We are going to experience probably despair at one time experience probably despair at one time experience probably despair at one time or another. We're going to experience or another. We're going to experience or another. We're going to experience the bitter existence of feeling, "What the bitter existence of feeling, "What the bitter existence of feeling, "What the hell are we doing on this planet? the hell are we doing on this planet? the hell are we doing on this planet? What is the point of anything?" Um or What is the point of anything?" Um or What is the point of anything?" Um or even just self-hatred, you know, it even just self-hatred, you know, it even just self-hatred, you know, it could be the way you look, it could be could be the way you look, it could be could be the way you look, it could be the way you talk, it could be the way you talk, it could be the way you talk, it could be maybe your job, maybe you're a man who maybe your job, maybe you're a man who maybe your job, maybe you're a man who has a job and you feel you should be has a job and you feel you should be has a job and you feel you should be earning more money, you feel earning more money, you feel earning more money, you feel emasculated. Maybe you're a woman, you emasculated. Maybe you're a woman, you emasculated. Maybe you're a woman, you feel that the worth you have is just how feel that the worth you have is just how feel that the worth you have is just how you look and you don't like the way you you look and you don't like the way you you look and you don't like the way you look, so you feel you have no worth.

look, so you feel you have no worth. look, so you feel you have no worth. Maybe you're in a heartbroken situation Maybe you're in a heartbroken situation Maybe you're in a heartbroken situation where the love of your life has just where the love of your life has just where the love of your life has just slipped through your fingers and you're slipped through your fingers and you're slipped through your fingers and you're tormented with the images and the tormented with the images and the tormented with the images and the memories of you together as one. And memories of you together as one. And memories of you together as one. And whatever you are going through right whatever you are going through right whatever you are going through right now, what we can learn from Dietrich now, what we can learn from Dietrich now, what we can learn from Dietrich Bonhoeffer here is that the way we deal Bonhoeffer here is that the way we deal Bonhoeffer here is that the way we deal with that really makes light of who we with that really makes light of who we with that really makes light of who we are. Because when you are in the depths, are. Because when you are in the depths, are. Because when you are in the depths, ladies and gentlemen, that's when the ladies and gentlemen, that's when the ladies and gentlemen, that's when the there is no mask, there is no there is no mask, there is no there is no mask, there is no dressing up, sugarcoating it. You just dressing up, sugarcoating it. You just dressing up, sugarcoating it. You just are what you are, and it takes are what you are, and it takes are what you are, and it takes incredible integrity to actually keep incredible integrity to actually keep incredible integrity to actually keep going among that. So, if you are one of going among that. So, if you are one of going among that. So, if you are one of these people, God bless you and do keep these people, God bless you and do keep these people, God bless you and do keep going. So, going to my favorite Clive going. So, going to my favorite Clive going. So, going to my favorite Clive Staples Lewis, I suggest to you that it Staples Lewis, I suggest to you that it Staples Lewis, I suggest to you that it is because God loves us. They gives us is because God loves us. They gives us is because God loves us. They gives us the gift of suffering. Bearing in mind the gift of suffering. Bearing in mind the gift of suffering. Bearing in mind this is from C.S. Lewis whose mom died this is from C.S. Lewis whose mom died this is from C.S. Lewis whose mom died of cancer when he was young, whose dad of cancer when he was young, whose dad of cancer when he was young, whose dad died of cancer, who he saw his best died of cancer, who he saw his best died of cancer, who he saw his best friend blown up in the trenches, and at friend blown up in the trenches, and at friend blown up in the trenches, and at the end of his life when he met the love the end of his life when he met the love the end of his life when he met the love of his life, Joy Davidson, she died of of his life, Joy Davidson, she died of of his life, Joy Davidson, she died of cancer. So, this is a man who really cancer. So, this is a man who really cancer. So, this is a man who really knows what he's talking about when he knows what he's talking about when he knows what he's talking about when he talks about pain. He experienced the talks about pain. He experienced the talks about pain. He experienced the depths of pain and the rawness of all depths of pain and the rawness of all depths of pain and the rawness of all that entailed. So, God loves us, they that entailed. So, God loves us, they that entailed. So, God loves us, they gives us the gift of suffering. Pain is gives us the gift of suffering. Pain is gives us the gift of suffering. Pain is God's megaphone to rouse a deaf world.

God's megaphone to rouse a deaf world. God's megaphone to rouse a deaf world. You see, we are like blocks of stone out You see, we are like blocks of stone out You see, we are like blocks of stone out of which the sculptor carves the forms of which the sculptor carves the forms of which the sculptor carves the forms of men. The blows of his chisel which of men. The blows of his chisel which of men. The blows of his chisel which hurt us so much hurt us so much hurt us so much are what make us perfect. What an are what make us perfect. What an are what make us perfect. What an incredible kind of metaphor. I don't incredible kind of metaphor. I don't incredible kind of metaphor. I don't even if know that is the word. Like you even if know that is the word. Like you even if know that is the word. Like you see people who do carpentry, who are see people who do carpentry, who are see people who do carpentry, who are stonemasons, whatever. You see them, you stonemasons, whatever. You see them, you stonemasons, whatever. You see them, you know, they have a slab of wood, they know, they have a slab of wood, they know, they have a slab of wood, they have a slab of rock, and they beat it, have a slab of rock, and they beat it, have a slab of rock, and they beat it, and they beat it, and beat it. And in and they beat it, and beat it. And in and they beat it, and beat it. And in the end this spectacle of beauty comes the end this spectacle of beauty comes the end this spectacle of beauty comes out of it, you know, through the out of it, you know, through the out of it, you know, through the hardship, through the suffering. hardship, through the suffering. hardship, through the suffering. And And And on the face it's easy to read that and on the face it's easy to read that and on the face it's easy to read that and be like, "Yeah, yeah, I know that, but I be like, "Yeah, yeah, I know that, but I be like, "Yeah, yeah, I know that, but I feel dreadful." And it's true. That like feel dreadful." And it's true. That like feel dreadful." And it's true. That like I think if you are watching this video, I think if you are watching this video, I think if you are watching this video, you probably are in a place where you you probably are in a place where you you probably are in a place where you just feel absolutely hopeless, where you just feel absolutely hopeless, where you just feel absolutely hopeless, where you feel you're scouring the internet for feel you're scouring the internet for feel you're scouring the internet for some hope, for some light. And some some hope, for some light. And some some hope, for some light. And some people's lives are such miseries, and I people's lives are such miseries, and I people's lives are such miseries, and I don't really have a proper answer to it. don't really have a proper answer to it. don't really have a proper answer to it. But I I just want this to kind of be But I I just want this to kind of be But I I just want this to kind of be nuggets of something people can cling nuggets of something people can cling nuggets of something people can cling onto, and just to know that some of the onto, and just to know that some of the onto, and just to know that some of the greatest people throughout history have greatest people throughout history have greatest people throughout history have been through this agony. May that be been through this agony. May that be been through this agony. May that be even the likes of even the likes of even the likes of St. Thomas Aquinas, may that be the St. Thomas Aquinas, may that be the St. Thomas Aquinas, may that be the likes of Clive Staples Lewis, you know.

likes of Clive Staples Lewis, you know. likes of Clive Staples Lewis, you know. May that be St. John of the Cross, maybe May that be St. John of the Cross, maybe May that be St. John of the Cross, maybe that mean John Wesley, you know, maybe that mean John Wesley, you know, maybe that mean John Wesley, you know, maybe that be Jesus, the man himself, you that be Jesus, the man himself, you that be Jesus, the man himself, you know. Um and I think when you Often when know. Um and I think when you Often when know. Um and I think when you Often when you feel sad or you feel miserable, you feel sad or you feel miserable, you feel sad or you feel miserable, there is that kind of enticing us there is that kind of enticing us there is that kind of enticing us self-pity. And that is not a good self-pity. And that is not a good self-pity. And that is not a good emotion to indulge in because the result emotion to indulge in because the result emotion to indulge in because the result is a cycle of sadness and then a reward. is a cycle of sadness and then a reward. is a cycle of sadness and then a reward. Now, when you are in, I think, the Now, when you are in, I think, the Now, when you are in, I think, the depths of hell, you do kind of think to depths of hell, you do kind of think to depths of hell, you do kind of think to yourself like that clinging to self-pity yourself like that clinging to self-pity yourself like that clinging to self-pity sometimes can actually be the only thing sometimes can actually be the only thing sometimes can actually be the only thing keeping you going cuz it's the only keeping you going cuz it's the only keeping you going cuz it's the only meaningful purpose and identity you have meaningful purpose and identity you have meaningful purpose and identity you have and without that, you are just in the and without that, you are just in the and without that, you are just in the bitter place of despair and that is bitter place of despair and that is bitter place of despair and that is horrific. horrific. horrific. Um but I would implore you to anyone Um but I would implore you to anyone Um but I would implore you to anyone who's really suffering, try your who's really suffering, try your who's really suffering, try your absolute best to kind of resist that absolute best to kind of resist that absolute best to kind of resist that self-pity cycle cuz that the light at self-pity cycle cuz that the light at self-pity cycle cuz that the light at the end of the tunnel does not come the end of the tunnel does not come the end of the tunnel does not come through that and it will only get worse. through that and it will only get worse. through that and it will only get worse. So, as much as you can, resist it and I So, as much as you can, resist it and I So, as much as you can, resist it and I know it's difficult and I know that it know it's difficult and I know that it know it's difficult and I know that it often it probably feels like that's the often it probably feels like that's the often it probably feels like that's the that's the only kind of comfort or joy that's the only kind of comfort or joy that's the only kind of comfort or joy is the actual indulgence in the is the actual indulgence in the is the actual indulgence in the wallowing in the pity. And I'm not And wallowing in the pity. And I'm not And wallowing in the pity. And I'm not And I'm not saying you want to do that I'm not saying you want to do that I'm not saying you want to do that either.

either. either. Because when you are in that desperate Because when you are in that desperate Because when you are in that desperate situation, it does just feel like the situation, it does just feel like the situation, it does just feel like the only lifebuoy, but try your absolute only lifebuoy, but try your absolute only lifebuoy, but try your absolute hardest not to take that first step down hardest not to take that first step down hardest not to take that first step down that because once you take the first that because once you take the first that because once you take the first step, it does just get worse and worse step, it does just get worse and worse step, it does just get worse and worse and worse. And I'm Look, I'm not and worse. And I'm Look, I'm not and worse. And I'm Look, I'm not a um therapist or anything like that. If a um therapist or anything like that. If a um therapist or anything like that. If like get a therapist, speak to someone, like get a therapist, speak to someone, like get a therapist, speak to someone, speak to your local priest, speak to speak to your local priest, speak to speak to your local priest, speak to your mom if you have a mom, speak to your mom if you have a mom, speak to your mom if you have a mom, speak to your family member, you know, reach out your family member, you know, reach out your family member, you know, reach out to people if you are in that place. Um to people if you are in that place. Um to people if you are in that place. Um so, obviously don't take this as gospel so, obviously don't take this as gospel so, obviously don't take this as gospel what I'm saying. I'm just giving my what I'm saying. I'm just giving my what I'm saying. I'm just giving my unprofessional advice. Do speak to unprofessional advice. Do speak to unprofessional advice. Do speak to actual professionals. Yeah. But um actual professionals. Yeah. But um actual professionals. Yeah. But um yeah, I think we can yeah, I think we can yeah, I think we can just take a lot from It's like I think just take a lot from It's like I think just take a lot from It's like I think when you meet someone who's really when you meet someone who's really when you meet someone who's really understood what suffering is like. Often understood what suffering is like. Often understood what suffering is like. Often there's such beauty in their perspective there's such beauty in their perspective there's such beauty in their perspective because they are coming from a place of because they are coming from a place of because they are coming from a place of understanding and very often all we want understanding and very often all we want understanding and very often all we want is to be seen. Even if that means is to be seen. Even if that means is to be seen. Even if that means someone is just there holding your hand someone is just there holding your hand someone is just there holding your hand through your sadness. That does absolute through your sadness. That does absolute through your sadness. That does absolute wonders. And if you're watching this and wonders. And if you're watching this and wonders. And if you're watching this and you're feeling good, reach out to a mate you're feeling good, reach out to a mate you're feeling good, reach out to a mate who's maybe not doing good or maybe who's maybe not doing good or maybe who's maybe not doing good or maybe someone you know who might not been someone you know who might not been someone you know who might not been doing as good as you cuz it could make a doing as good as you cuz it could make a doing as good as you cuz it could make a serious difference. So bring it to the serious difference. So bring it to the serious difference. So bring it to the Bible. We got obviously John 3:16, "For Bible. We got obviously John 3:16, "For Bible. We got obviously John 3:16, "For God so loved the world that he gave his God so loved the world that he gave his God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son that whoever believes one and only son that whoever believes one and only son that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal in him shall not perish but have eternal in him shall not perish but have eternal life." What a quote there.

life." What a quote there. life." What a quote there. Um and what a part of scripture because Um and what a part of scripture because Um and what a part of scripture because it really puts to the center of what the it really puts to the center of what the it really puts to the center of what the cross means, you know? Like the cross cross means, you know? Like the cross cross means, you know? Like the cross was a humiliating torture technique cuz was a humiliating torture technique cuz was a humiliating torture technique cuz there's a book I'm reading right now by there's a book I'm reading right now by there's a book I'm reading right now by Rowan Williams um all about the cross Rowan Williams um all about the cross Rowan Williams um all about the cross and kind of the symbolism of that. And and kind of the symbolism of that. And and kind of the symbolism of that. And in the, you know, early Christians, when in the, you know, early Christians, when in the, you know, early Christians, when people saw the cross, they found it so people saw the cross, they found it so people saw the cross, they found it so weird that they were had a kind of weird that they were had a kind of weird that they were had a kind of torture technique to have as a symbol. torture technique to have as a symbol. torture technique to have as a symbol. It's like the equivalent of a of a It's like the equivalent of a of a It's like the equivalent of a of a religion starting now that had like the religion starting now that had like the religion starting now that had like the electric chair as their symbol. It'd be electric chair as their symbol. It'd be electric chair as their symbol. It'd be like, "What are these people doing? Are like, "What are these people doing? Are like, "What are these people doing? Are they Like something seriously wrong they Like something seriously wrong they Like something seriously wrong here?" But John Lennox speaks about how here?" But John Lennox speaks about how here?" But John Lennox speaks about how there's so much in the world, you know, there's so much in the world, you know, there's so much in the world, you know, beauty and bombs, you know, there's beauty and bombs, you know, there's beauty and bombs, you know, there's incredible wonder, there's incredible incredible wonder, there's incredible incredible wonder, there's incredible order, there's incredible joy and order, there's incredible joy and order, there's incredible joy and fulfillments like there's also so much fulfillments like there's also so much fulfillments like there's also so much destruction, you know, there's terrorist destruction, you know, there's terrorist destruction, you know, there's terrorist attacks, there's people taking their attacks, there's people taking their attacks, there's people taking their lives, there's, you know, the list goes lives, there's, you know, the list goes lives, there's, you know, the list goes on and on and on. And sometimes it feels on and on and on. And sometimes it feels on and on and on. And sometimes it feels like there's too much. There is no light like there's too much. There is no light like there's too much. There is no light at the end of the tunnel and it's it's at the end of the tunnel and it's it's at the end of the tunnel and it's it's right very, very sad.

right very, very sad. right very, very sad. But one thing we can really hold on to But one thing we can really hold on to But one thing we can really hold on to and I think John Lennox really and I think John Lennox really and I think John Lennox really eloquently puts it. If you don't know, eloquently puts it. If you don't know, eloquently puts it. If you don't know, he's a very big Christian apologist, he's a very big Christian apologist, he's a very big Christian apologist, Oxford mathematician, Christian. He Oxford mathematician, Christian. He Oxford mathematician, Christian. He says, you know, says, you know, says, you know, the fact that Jesus died on a cross the fact that Jesus died on a cross the fact that Jesus died on a cross and was humiliated like that. and was humiliated like that. and was humiliated like that. Um both the emotional and physical Um both the emotional and physical Um both the emotional and physical endurance of that shows that God really endurance of that shows that God really endurance of that shows that God really has come to know what our suffering is has come to know what our suffering is has come to know what our suffering is like. And while in the depths of hell, like. And while in the depths of hell, like. And while in the depths of hell, that really kind of all sometimes often that really kind of all sometimes often that really kind of all sometimes often means nothing. You can't really means nothing. You can't really means nothing. You can't really conceptualize that when you are feeling conceptualize that when you are feeling conceptualize that when you are feeling dreadful, but it when you are feeling a dreadful, but it when you are feeling a dreadful, but it when you are feeling a little bit good or a little bit hopeful, little bit good or a little bit hopeful, little bit good or a little bit hopeful, you can just cling onto that. I think you can just cling onto that. I think you can just cling onto that. I think that can do a lot in the sense that that can do a lot in the sense that that can do a lot in the sense that you know, it's not like God is distant you know, it's not like God is distant you know, it's not like God is distant from suffering, you know. The atonement from suffering, you know. The atonement from suffering, you know. The atonement was the ultimate suffering and what it was the ultimate suffering and what it was the ultimate suffering and what it really mean. And I'm still trying to really mean. And I'm still trying to really mean. And I'm still trying to figure out what what atonement really figure out what what atonement really figure out what what atonement really means. It's something I kind of struggle means. It's something I kind of struggle means. It's something I kind of struggle with, you know, the And you got the with, you know, the And you got the with, you know, the And you got the likes of Christopher Hitchens who speaks likes of Christopher Hitchens who speaks likes of Christopher Hitchens who speaks about, you know, the notion that God had about, you know, the notion that God had about, you know, the notion that God had to send his his son down to die on a to send his his son down to die on a to send his his son down to die on a tree so that everyone be saved. He finds tree so that everyone be saved. He finds tree so that everyone be saved. He finds like, you know, baffling and how does like, you know, baffling and how does like, you know, baffling and how does that equal being saved, you know? Sure that equal being saved, you know? Sure that equal being saved, you know? Sure that'd be a cruel father. And there's a that'd be a cruel father. And there's a that'd be a cruel father. And there's a lot of interesting takes there and I I lot of interesting takes there and I I lot of interesting takes there and I I struggle with that and I'm still trying struggle with that and I'm still trying struggle with that and I'm still trying to figure out the real meaning of to figure out the real meaning of to figure out the real meaning of atonement because I I struggle with it.

atonement because I I struggle with it. atonement because I I struggle with it. But all I do know is But all I do know is But all I do know is Jesus does know your suffering like Jesus does know your suffering like Jesus does know your suffering like that. And it's it is something to cling that. And it's it is something to cling that. And it's it is something to cling onto. So we got St. John of the cross, onto. So we got St. John of the cross, onto. So we got St. John of the cross, the endurance of darkness is the the endurance of darkness is the the endurance of darkness is the preparation for great light. What a preparation for great light. What a preparation for great light. What a quote, you know, as dark as it gets quote, you know, as dark as it gets quote, you know, as dark as it gets means you're closer to the light, you means you're closer to the light, you means you're closer to the light, you know, the darker it gets, the better it know, the darker it gets, the better it know, the darker it gets, the better it gets in some ways. As Rowan Williams in gets in some ways. As Rowan Williams in gets in some ways. As Rowan Williams in The Going Gets Tough famously quotes St. The Going Gets Tough famously quotes St. The Going Gets Tough famously quotes St. John of the cross, and there's a lot we John of the cross, and there's a lot we John of the cross, and there's a lot we can learn from that just in the sense can learn from that just in the sense can learn from that just in the sense that the worst it gets, that the worst it gets, that the worst it gets, the better the good will be, you know, the better the good will be, you know, the better the good will be, you know, how do we know a line is straight? You how do we know a line is straight? You how do we know a line is straight? You know what a crooked line looks like. And know what a crooked line looks like. And know what a crooked line looks like. And it's it's something when when you are in it's it's something when when you are in it's it's something when when you are in that place, it's so meaningless. And if that place, it's so meaningless. And if that place, it's so meaningless. And if you when you're watching this video, you when you're watching this video, you when you're watching this video, you're just you're probably going to you're just you're probably going to you're just you're probably going to take that as a meaningless thing, right? take that as a meaningless thing, right? take that as a meaningless thing, right? But I'm telling you, hold on to it. And But I'm telling you, hold on to it. And But I'm telling you, hold on to it. And I think one one thing we can really take I think one one thing we can really take I think one one thing we can really take from this as well is when you feel good, from this as well is when you feel good, from this as well is when you feel good, do not forget how you felt when you were do not forget how you felt when you were do not forget how you felt when you were in this place of darkness.

in this place of darkness. in this place of darkness. Because Because Because when you are in that place of darkness, when you are in that place of darkness, when you are in that place of darkness, it gives you a scope. It gives you a it gives you a scope. It gives you a it gives you a scope. It gives you a lens to what so many people go through lens to what so many people go through lens to what so many people go through in their lives. You know, there's people in their lives. You know, there's people in their lives. You know, there's people whose whole lives whose whole lives whose whole lives is feeling miserable, whose whole is feeling miserable, whose whole is feeling miserable, whose whole existence is nothing but sheer suffering existence is nothing but sheer suffering existence is nothing but sheer suffering and pain and neglect and not being seen and pain and neglect and not being seen and pain and neglect and not being seen and not being loved. and not being loved. and not being loved. And when you are in that place of you And when you are in that place of you And when you are in that place of you know, as he said, preparation for great know, as he said, preparation for great know, as he said, preparation for great light, you have a lens at your disposal light, you have a lens at your disposal light, you have a lens at your disposal to the hell that you went through that to the hell that you went through that to the hell that you went through that other people will go through. So, you other people will go through. So, you other people will go through. So, you must remember that and not put that put must remember that and not put that put must remember that and not put that put that lens away. that lens away. that lens away. And when you see your fellow brother And when you see your fellow brother And when you see your fellow brother suffering, suffering, suffering, think to yourself, well, just do this, think to yourself, well, just do this, think to yourself, well, just do this, just do that. Because do not forget you just do that. Because do not forget you just do that. Because do not forget you were in that place. were in that place. were in that place. Um and I think this is something also to Um and I think this is something also to Um and I think this is something also to hold on to is hold on to is hold on to is when you are going through this terror, when you are going through this terror, when you are going through this terror, when you are going through this when you are going through this when you are going through this hardship, you are developing a lens to hardship, you are developing a lens to hardship, you are developing a lens to life that not everyone has. Not everyone life that not everyone has. Not everyone life that not everyone has. Not everyone has this lens that you will develop has this lens that you will develop has this lens that you will develop through your agony and pain. It will through your agony and pain. It will through your agony and pain. It will mean you can really feel the heart of mean you can really feel the heart of mean you can really feel the heart of hurt people feel. It means that you can hurt people feel. It means that you can hurt people feel. It means that you can really help these people sometimes really help these people sometimes really help these people sometimes because you have a knowledge that other because you have a knowledge that other because you have a knowledge that other people do not have. You have an empathy.

people do not have. You have an empathy. people do not have. You have an empathy. You have a a scope that other people You have a a scope that other people You have a a scope that other people don't have. So, do don't have. So, do don't have. So, do take some light in that. And take some light in that. And take some light in that. And [clears throat] for the really sad [clears throat] for the really sad [clears throat] for the really sad thing, the thing I struggle with most thing, the thing I struggle with most thing, the thing I struggle with most without within this is the fact that without within this is the fact that without within this is the fact that some people don't some people don't some people don't have the light. They don't. And it's the have the light. They don't. And it's the have the light. They don't. And it's the most heart-wrenching most heart-wrenching most heart-wrenching thing to contemplate. And it kills me thing to contemplate. And it kills me thing to contemplate. And it kills me inside to think about it. Really does. inside to think about it. Really does. inside to think about it. Really does. Um Um Um So, if you do get to the light, which So, if you do get to the light, which So, if you do get to the light, which most of the time is the case. I don't most of the time is the case. I don't most of the time is the case. I don't want to be too pessimistic at like you want to be too pessimistic at like you want to be too pessimistic at like you almost definitely will have the light. almost definitely will have the light. almost definitely will have the light. Some people God bless us all. I don't Some people God bless us all. I don't Some people God bless us all. I don't know why, but they don't get the light. know why, but they don't get the light. know why, but they don't get the light. Um when you do have that light Um when you do have that light Um when you do have that light push that light to other people. If push that light to other people. If push that light to other people. If it is your duty to give that to other it is your duty to give that to other it is your duty to give that to other people. That light that you people. That light that you people. That light that you now have. Um cuz there's so many damn now have. Um cuz there's so many damn now have. Um cuz there's so many damn people in the world who are people in the world who are people in the world who are have it so rough, you know. Um have it so rough, you know. Um have it so rough, you know. Um So, really hold on to that. You know.

So, really hold on to that. You know. So, really hold on to that. You know. So, this is Mother Teresa. Now, I've So, this is Mother Teresa. Now, I've So, this is Mother Teresa. Now, I've actually had a few comments about some actually had a few comments about some actually had a few comments about some dodgy stuff around Mother Teresa. So, I dodgy stuff around Mother Teresa. So, I dodgy stuff around Mother Teresa. So, I am going to look into more, but I do am going to look into more, but I do am going to look into more, but I do think there's one thing fair to say, she think there's one thing fair to say, she think there's one thing fair to say, she does have a lot of wisdom on, which is does have a lot of wisdom on, which is does have a lot of wisdom on, which is um loneliness. um loneliness. um loneliness. She herself actually She herself actually She herself actually dealt with a lot of loneliness. dealt with a lot of loneliness. dealt with a lot of loneliness. If you look at her letters If you look at her letters If you look at her letters >> [clears throat] >> [clears throat] >> [clears throat] >> post her work, which has really stuck to >> post her work, which has really stuck to >> post her work, which has really stuck to a lot of people. Anyway, she says the a lot of people. Anyway, she says the a lot of people. Anyway, she says the greatest disease in Western society greatest disease in Western society greatest disease in Western society today is not TB, it's not leprosy, it is today is not TB, it's not leprosy, it is today is not TB, it's not leprosy, it is being unwanted, unloved, and uncared being unwanted, unloved, and uncared being unwanted, unloved, and uncared for. We can cure physical diseases with for. We can cure physical diseases with for. We can cure physical diseases with medicine, but the only cure for medicine, but the only cure for medicine, but the only cure for loneliness and despair and hopelessness loneliness and despair and hopelessness loneliness and despair and hopelessness is is is is love. There are many in the world who is love. There are many in the world who is love. There are many in the world who are dying for a piece of bread, but are dying for a piece of bread, but are dying for a piece of bread, but there are many more dying for a little there are many more dying for a little there are many more dying for a little love. The poverty in the West is a love. The poverty in the West is a love. The poverty in the West is a different kind of poverty. It is the different kind of poverty. It is the different kind of poverty. It is the only poverty of loneliness, but also only poverty of loneliness, but also only poverty of loneliness, but also of spirituality. And wow, of spirituality. And wow, of spirituality. And wow, what we can take a lot from that. And what we can take a lot from that. And what we can take a lot from that. And you like it's so true in the sense that you like it's so true in the sense that you like it's so true in the sense that in other places when in other places when in other places when there's certain basic things that aren't there's certain basic things that aren't there's certain basic things that aren't there, clean water, food, you know, kids there, clean water, food, you know, kids there, clean water, food, you know, kids dying. It's it's absolutely dying. It's it's absolutely dying. It's it's absolutely heartbreaking. Don't get me wrong at heartbreaking. Don't get me wrong at heartbreaking. Don't get me wrong at all.

all. all. But in the West, we often do have those But in the West, we often do have those But in the West, we often do have those things covered. I mean, there's millions things covered. I mean, there's millions things covered. I mean, there's millions of people going to food banks and to an of people going to food banks and to an of people going to food banks and to an absolute devastation, it's actually kind absolute devastation, it's actually kind absolute devastation, it's actually kind of going the inverse way a bit. Loads of of going the inverse way a bit. Loads of of going the inverse way a bit. Loads of people struggle financially just to people struggle financially just to people struggle financially just to basically eat, which is devastating. Um basically eat, which is devastating. Um basically eat, which is devastating. Um but it's fair to say that the thing that but it's fair to say that the thing that but it's fair to say that the thing that we really lack is love. The more we really lack is love. The more we really lack is love. The more individualistic our culture gets, the individualistic our culture gets, the individualistic our culture gets, the more focused on oneself it gets, the more focused on oneself it gets, the more focused on oneself it gets, the more people feel that. more people feel that. more people feel that. You know, the amount of people who are You know, the amount of people who are You know, the amount of people who are just so anxious, so terrified. You know, just so anxious, so terrified. You know, just so anxious, so terrified. You know, you go to the bus stop, people on their you go to the bus stop, people on their you go to the bus stop, people on their phones. You go phones. You go phones. You go I mean, I'm on my phone all the time. I mean, I'm on my phone all the time. I mean, I'm on my phone all the time. It's not good, you know, and there's It's not good, you know, and there's It's not good, you know, and there's definitely things I need to work on big definitely things I need to work on big definitely things I need to work on big time. time. time. Um Um Um but she's There's a lot of truth in but she's There's a lot of truth in but she's There's a lot of truth in that, you know. It is a different kind that, you know. It is a different kind that, you know. It is a different kind of poverty we live in. It's It's a of poverty we live in. It's It's a of poverty we live in. It's It's a poverty of s- either selfishness or poverty of s- either selfishness or poverty of s- either selfishness or individuali- individualism, is that even individuali- individualism, is that even individuali- individualism, is that even a word? I don't even know. a word? I don't even know. a word? I don't even know. But, there's there's a lot of truth in But, there's there's a lot of truth in But, there's there's a lot of truth in that. Um and that. Um and that. Um and look, this video, I don't I don't even look, this video, I don't I don't even look, this video, I don't I don't even know how much this is going to help know how much this is going to help know how much this is going to help people who watch this.

people who watch this. people who watch this. But, I I just wanted to make it just so But, I I just wanted to make it just so But, I I just wanted to make it just so you feel seen. Like, if you're one of you feel seen. Like, if you're one of you feel seen. Like, if you're one of those people out there struggling, I those people out there struggling, I those people out there struggling, I just hope this video just hope this video just hope this video it makes you feel that you're not alone, it makes you feel that you're not alone, it makes you feel that you're not alone, that it can get better. It doesn't like, that it can get better. It doesn't like, that it can get better. It doesn't like, there is a possibility that it's not there is a possibility that it's not there is a possibility that it's not going to be this way forever. going to be this way forever. going to be this way forever. And that's why I'm making this video, And that's why I'm making this video, And that's why I'm making this video, and just these and just these and just these nuggets of wisdom of people who have nuggets of wisdom of people who have nuggets of wisdom of people who have really lived through suffering, like really lived through suffering, like really lived through suffering, like Dietrich Bonhoeffer, like C.S. Lewis, Dietrich Bonhoeffer, like C.S. Lewis, Dietrich Bonhoeffer, like C.S. Lewis, you know, like Mother Teresa. you know, like Mother Teresa. you know, like Mother Teresa. I'm hoping that their wisdom can lift I'm hoping that their wisdom can lift I'm hoping that their wisdom can lift you just a little bit, and hang on in you just a little bit, and hang on in you just a little bit, and hang on in there. there. there. You know, cling to what will keep you You know, cling to what will keep you You know, cling to what will keep you going, going, going, and resist the and resist the and resist the temptation of wallow, of self-pity, temptation of wallow, of self-pity, temptation of wallow, of self-pity, because it will never end well. It will because it will never end well. It will because it will never end well. It will never go to a place of goodness. never go to a place of goodness. never go to a place of goodness. And do not If there's any Christians out And do not If there's any Christians out And do not If there's any Christians out there who say, you know, just do this, there who say, you know, just do this, there who say, you know, just do this, just do that, you'll be fine. just do that, you'll be fine. just do that, you'll be fine. You know, it's okay to feel dreadful. You know, it's okay to feel dreadful. You know, it's okay to feel dreadful. It's okay to to It's okay to to It's okay to to um um um you know, not feel that God is speaking you know, not feel that God is speaking you know, not feel that God is speaking to you. It's okay to feel like you to you. It's okay to feel like you to you. It's okay to feel like you you've been abandoned, you know?

you've been abandoned, you know? you've been abandoned, you know? And that doesn't mean you're less of a And that doesn't mean you're less of a And that doesn't mean you're less of a Christian at all. And anyone who tells Christian at all. And anyone who tells Christian at all. And anyone who tells you that is not preaching the gospel. you that is not preaching the gospel. you that is not preaching the gospel. They're really not, all right? Um so, They're really not, all right? Um so, They're really not, all right? Um so, hang on in there. And message me, you hang on in there. And message me, you hang on in there. And message me, you know, drop a comment, you know, I Any know, drop a comment, you know, I Any know, drop a comment, you know, I Any Anyone who's struggling, right? Drop a Anyone who's struggling, right? Drop a Anyone who's struggling, right? Drop a comment. Follow my Inst- Actually, you comment. Follow my Inst- Actually, you comment. Follow my Inst- Actually, you don't Don't follow my Instagram. Message don't Don't follow my Instagram. Message don't Don't follow my Instagram. Message me on Instagram. I'll link it below me on Instagram. I'll link it below me on Instagram. I'll link it below if you're one of those people, all if you're one of those people, all if you're one of those people, all right? right? right? And we'll have a call. And we'll have a call. And we'll have a call. Yeah. Do that, because Yeah. Do that, because Yeah. Do that, because yeah, whatever, you know, yeah, whatever, you know, yeah, whatever, you know, there's so much This There's so many there's so much This There's so many there's so much This There's so many people out there who are really trying people out there who are really trying people out there who are really trying to help people, and just keep going. to help people, and just keep going. to help people, and just keep going. Hang on in there. Um and thank you for Hang on in there. Um and thank you for Hang on in there. Um and thank you for watching this video and actually being watching this video and actually being watching this video and actually being bothered to try and make it better, cuz bothered to try and make it better, cuz bothered to try and make it better, cuz it You're clearly in a place where you it You're clearly in a place where you it You're clearly in a place where you can't You want to make it better. The can't You want to make it better. The can't You want to make it better. The fact that you're watching this video, fact that you're watching this video, fact that you're watching this video, even if you convince yourself you don't even if you convince yourself you don't even if you convince yourself you don't want to make it better, you want to just want to make it better, you want to just want to make it better, you want to just go in the pits there, go in the pits there, go in the pits there, you clearly do, cuz you would not watch you clearly do, cuz you would not watch you clearly do, cuz you would not watch this video if you did not want to make this video if you did not want to make this video if you did not want to make it better in some way. it better in some way. it better in some way. So, God bless you.

So, God bless you. So, God bless you. May Jesus wrap his hands around you, May Jesus wrap his hands around you, May Jesus wrap his hands around you, give you a big hug, big kiss on the give you a big hug, big kiss on the give you a big hug, big kiss on the forehead. Um and yeah, absolutely bless forehead. Um and yeah, absolutely bless forehead. Um and yeah, absolutely bless you. Um and I really hope just hang on you. Um and I really hope just hang on you. Um and I really hope just hang on in there. Keep going. in there. Keep going. in there. Keep going. Yeah, God bless you. Um Yeah, God bless you. Um Yeah, God bless you. Um I I don't really know what else to say, I I don't really know what else to say, I I don't really know what else to say, to be honest. I just to be honest. I just to be honest. I just I just I like It's like when I'm on a I just I like It's like when I'm on a I just I like It's like when I'm on a train train train and I see someone sad, it just breaks my and I see someone sad, it just breaks my and I see someone sad, it just breaks my heart, and it's like heart, and it's like heart, and it's like it's it's quite a basic thing that it's it's quite a basic thing that it's it's quite a basic thing that people are feeling sad, but people are feeling sad, but people are feeling sad, but I just think um I just think um I just think um it's it's one of the most difficult it's it's one of the most difficult it's it's one of the most difficult things with faith is is the sheer level things with faith is is the sheer level things with faith is is the sheer level of suffering in the world. It of suffering in the world. It of suffering in the world. It it's difficult not to just absorb that it's difficult not to just absorb that it's difficult not to just absorb that and be like, what is going on here? and be like, what is going on here? and be like, what is going on here? Like please God speak to these people, Like please God speak to these people, Like please God speak to these people, you know? Um but yeah. you know? Um but yeah. you know? Um but yeah. My random video. Hope it makes My random video. Hope it makes My random video. Hope it makes difference. Love you all and God bless. difference. Love you all and God bless. difference. Love you all and God bless. Peace.