DUSTIN POIRIER SPEAKS OUT AFTER ARREST

I've had bouts with depression I've had bouts with depression throughout my career, but man, when it throughout my career, but man, when it throughout my career, but man, when it hits me, it's bad. Which kind of brings hits me, it's bad. Which kind of brings hits me, it's bad. Which kind of brings us to the airport incident. us to the airport incident. us to the airport incident. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> I really messed up. >> What happened? >> What happened? >> So, it's Father's Day, and I felt good >> So, it's Father's Day, and I felt good >> So, it's Father's Day, and I felt good in the morning. I spent the morning with in the morning. I spent the morning with in the morning. I spent the morning with my kids, but then as I was traveling to my kids, but then as I was traveling to my kids, but then as I was traveling to work, I felt that feeling again. It's work, I felt that feeling again. It's work, I felt that feeling again. It's like a cloud in my head that I just like a cloud in my head that I just like a cloud in my head that I just can't get out from under. So, I started can't get out from under. So, I started can't get out from under. So, I started drinking. drinking. drinking. >> I'll fight you right now. >> I'll fight you right now. >> I'll fight you right now. >> No, I don't want to fight, bro. >> No, I don't want to fight, bro. >> No, I don't want to fight, bro. >> And my emotions got the best of me. >> And my emotions got the best of me. >> And my emotions got the best of me. >> Bro, relax. Relax. Relax, bro. Relax. >> Bro, relax. Relax. Relax, bro. Relax. >> Bro, relax. Relax. Relax, bro. Relax. >> Got arrested. >> Got arrested. >> Got arrested. >> This guy is a nuisance. [ __ ] that. >> This guy is a nuisance. [ __ ] that. >> This guy is a nuisance. [ __ ] that. >> Did I just ruin everything that I was >> Did I just ruin everything that I was >> Did I just ruin everything that I was working for? You know, I don't know yet. working for? You know, I don't know yet. working for? You know, I don't know yet. And it could have been so much worse. And it could have been so much worse. And it could have been so much worse. >> What was going on in your mind? >> What was going on in your mind? >> What was going on in your mind? >> I was angry at the world, and I just >> I was angry at the world, and I just >> I was angry at the world, and I just couldn't stop thinking about my father. couldn't stop thinking about my father. couldn't stop thinking about my father. You know, he's actually homeless right You know, he's actually homeless right You know, he's actually homeless right now. now. now. And I try to help him out, and he's back And I try to help him out, and he's back And I try to help him out, and he's back out on the street. Not that anything's out on the street. Not that anything's out on the street. Not that anything's an excuse, but I wasn't myself. And I an excuse, but I wasn't myself. And I an excuse, but I wasn't myself. And I never really spoke about it until right never really spoke about it until right never really spoke about it until right now, but I'm back in therapy. [music] now, but I'm back in therapy. [music] now, but I'm back in therapy. [music] And when you sit down with somebody and And when you sit down with somebody and And when you sit down with somebody and start opening things up, you realize start opening things up, you realize start opening things up, you realize this could be linked to my childhood. this could be linked to my childhood. this could be linked to my childhood. >> And when I think about your earliest >> And when I think about your earliest >> And when I think about your earliest contacts, you got a father that's an contacts, you got a father that's an contacts, you got a father that's an alcoholic, violence in the home, and alcoholic, violence in the home, and alcoholic, violence in the home, and your mom said that you were an alcoholic your mom said that you were an alcoholic your mom said that you were an alcoholic kid.

kid. kid. >> I started drinking at 12, 13. >> I started drinking at 12, 13. >> I started drinking at 12, 13. >> Expelled from school as well. >> Expelled from school as well. >> Expelled from school as well. >> And got arrested, and I didn't have any >> And got arrested, and I didn't have any >> And got arrested, and I didn't have any goals. goals. goals. >> So, it was a the roller coaster. But >> So, it was a the roller coaster. But >> So, it was a the roller coaster. But what happened? what happened? what happened? You rose. >> One of the best lightweights in the >> One of the best lightweights in the world. world. world. >> I was on top of the world. >> I was on top of the world. >> I was on top of the world. >> But the roller coasters go down, too. >> But the roller coasters go down, too. >> But the roller coasters go down, too. And this was the moment. And this was the moment. And this was the moment. >> Yeah, man. >> Yeah, man. >> Yeah, man. >> July 30th, you retired. How does it feel >> July 30th, you retired. How does it feel >> July 30th, you retired. How does it feel looking at that photo? looking at that photo? looking at that photo? >> Yeah, I'm trying not to tear up, dude. >> Yeah, I'm trying not to tear up, dude. >> Yeah, I'm trying not to tear up, dude. It was my life, man. Those gloves, me It was my life, man. Those gloves, me It was my life, man. Those gloves, me putting them on the mat is a piece of putting them on the mat is a piece of putting them on the mat is a piece of myself I left. But a wise man said, "If myself I left. But a wise man said, "If myself I left. But a wise man said, "If a man's lucky, he gets to die twice." a man's lucky, he gets to die twice." a man's lucky, he gets to die twice." That part of me that every day wake up, That part of me that every day wake up, That part of me that every day wake up, push yourself to be the best fighter you push yourself to be the best fighter you push yourself to be the best fighter you can be is dead. I'm retired, Dustin. I'm can be is dead. I'm retired, Dustin. I'm can be is dead. I'm retired, Dustin. I'm businessman Dustin now. You know, it's businessman Dustin now. You know, it's businessman Dustin now. You know, it's just I'm trying to figure it all out. just I'm trying to figure it all out. just I'm trying to figure it all out. Cuz for 20 years I was dreaming about Cuz for 20 years I was dreaming about Cuz for 20 years I was dreaming about being the best. I just want to dream being the best. I just want to dream being the best. I just want to dream again, you know? again, you know? again, you know? >> Has there ever been anything that >> Has there ever been anything that >> Has there ever been anything that compared? compared? compared? >> No, nothing fills that void of what >> No, nothing fills that void of what >> No, nothing fills that void of what fighting was. And fighting was a part of fighting was. And fighting was a part of fighting was. And fighting was a part of therapy for me. And some days I wake up therapy for me. And some days I wake up therapy for me. And some days I wake up and I'm like, these top guys that are and I'm like, these top guys that are and I'm like, these top guys that are winning now on these upcoming cards, I winning now on these upcoming cards, I winning now on these upcoming cards, I can beat them still. can beat them still. can beat them still. >> So, is there any possibility that you >> So, is there any possibility that you >> So, is there any possibility that you ever return [music] to the UFC?